Monday, 14 October 2013
Brook Cottage Brooks is thrilled to welcome February Grace to the blog. Ms Grace has written a fantastic guest post. There's also a fantastic giveaway!
A Place To
Belong: What The Freak’s Chorus Means To Me by February Grace
At some point in
life, almost everyone has had the experience of feeling different or left out.
I am sure I
don’t have to tell you, it is not a happy feeling.
I was singled out in
school for being different. For being physically weak, for religious
differences, for…who knows what other reasons. The bottom line was that I was
cast aside and bullied— so badly that my parents ended up withdrawing me from
public school halfway through the fourth grade and homeschooling me from then
on out.
I have never
forgotten those experiences (though one tries.) Perhaps that is because they
have all come rushing back to me more than once as an adult, as my poor health
has again caused me to be viewed as different from the norm out in public.
It happens
more often than you’d think.
Due to a stroke in
my late twenties, I walk using a forearm crutch. I wear huge, and I mean
GIGANTIC, special aphakia glasses because I don’t have lenses in my eyes any more.
Without these glasses I am and will always be legally blind. I am lucky that my
vision can be corrected at all, and I am grateful for them.
This does not stop
people from staring at me in public; the old and young alike. Those things
about me, as well as various other scars that I have from past medical
procedures/issues make me different, and people think different doesn’t belong.
I am here
to tell you that everyone belongs,
it’s just a matter of finding out where.
Some people don’t
mind not belonging much, especially if they’re an introvert, like I am, You
might be happy with a few close friends: let the rest of the world think what
it will of you, it doesn't matter much.
Others are more
bothered by being seen as outsiders, and actively seek a place to fit in and
belong. Somewhere that they feel they are welcome— where the stings of the
stares and thoughtless words of the masses fade away.
This is the idea
behind the concept of the Freak’s Chorus, as written in my novel, GODSPEED.
The Freak’s Chorus
is a name that a disabled character, nicknamed Jib, gives the group of youthful
patients in Doctor Godspeed’s care, himself included. He chooses the name for a
specific reason. Quote:
“The
Freak’s Chorus!” Jib crowed. “That’s what we call ourselves.”
“That’s
what you call us,” Penn
objected softly, as he poked a fork into his food, but looked unsure whether he
felt up to eating it.
“Why…on
Earth—” I stammered.
“’Cause
if you own it, then the word can’t hurt you,” Jib explained. “Come on, you
can’t tell me that you’ve never been called a freak before. Well, maybe not
you, Elsewhere, because you never leave the ivory tower here. But the rest of
us, all of us been called freak one time or another, am I right?” He paused,
eyes shifting around the table. “Right? Penn? Marielle? You too, Lilibet, I
know you’re listening.”
Lilibet
continued eating her food without giving any indication she’d heard.
“Right.
So you take the name as a title and wear it proud, and nobody can hurt you with
it anymore.”
After being a teen
with so-called hidden disabilities, it meant a lot to me to write about youths
with various challenges in GODSPEED. I hoped to give a gentle reminder to
anyone (regardless of age) who may read it and feels they don’t belong, whether
due to physical challenges or for any other reason, that belonging is a matter
of just finding the right people to fit with.
Just because you
might not feel you fit in at school, or at home, or anywhere else, that doesn’t
mean that there isn’t a place where you can’t, and won’t, fit in.
It can be a healthy,
supportive place, whether among a small group of friends, or within the
structure of a community setting like an after-school activity. Somehow,
somewhere, you can keep looking until you find where you fit. Or you can
assemble your own personal ‘chorus’ to keep you company, making a circle out of
those who would otherwise feel left out as well.
The Freak’s Chorus
is dear to my heart because I was— and still am, in many ways— an outsider. By
sharing our experiences of feeling left out, we can bring others closer, and
then one day we look up and find that we are not alone anymore, after all.
F.G.
Godspeed
YA/Steampunk/Romance
Godspeed will be at a reduced
price (both US and UK) Kindle from 7th to 25th October (while the book is
touring).
204
pages
Publisher: Booktrope Editions (18 Jun 2013)
Language: English
ISBN-10: 1620151499
ISBN-13: 978-1620151495
"What is a heart if not the ultimate clockwork?"
Abigail’s young life was saved by the kindness of strangers: Schuyler Algernon, the man who found her collapsed on cold city streets, and Quinn Godspeed, the doctor who risked everything by breaking the law to keep her fragile heart beating.
As the truth about what she’s become and her feelings for her saviour overtake her, Abigail is forced to ask what constitutes life, living, and what dark secrets are contained within Godspeed’s past and the walls of Schuyler’s house.
Abigail’s young life was saved by the kindness of strangers: Schuyler Algernon, the man who found her collapsed on cold city streets, and Quinn Godspeed, the doctor who risked everything by breaking the law to keep her fragile heart beating.
As the truth about what she’s become and her feelings for her saviour overtake her, Abigail is forced to ask what constitutes life, living, and what dark secrets are contained within Godspeed’s past and the walls of Schuyler’s house.
About the Author
February Grace
is a writer, artist, and poet who lives in Southeastern Michigan. She sings in
key, plays by ear, and is more than mildly obsessed with colours, clocks, and
meteor showers. GODSPEED is her debut novel.
Twitter: @FebruaryGrace
The giveaway
Ø 1 x $20/£10 Amazon Gift Card
Ø 3 x ecopies of Godspeed
a Rafflecopter giveaway
Thank you so much for hosting me today!
Thank you for hosting Bru today JB. And for being so early in posting this morning :)
Shaz
This is such a beautiful post, and makes the story of Godspeed even more beautiful than it was before.
You are such an inspiration, February, and you deserve many wonderful things to come your way (like the Amazon sale rankings of Godspeed!).